Josh Kezer: Why? How?

Monday, May 17, 2010

Why? How?

Why? Why am I not so angry all the time? How is it that I've been able to withstand the temptation to rage? What's the purpose?

The long and short of it: others. The other long and short of it: it's not about me. The summary of both long and shorts: Jesus.

What He's done in my heart through this to teach me about His love for others is sometimes beyond my ability to summarize.

His love is amazing! 1st John 4:19 says, "We love Him, because He first loved us." The same could be said of our love for others. We love others, because He first loved us.

His love & forgiveness free'd us to love Him and to love & forgive others. His love & forgiveness empowers our love & forgiveness to free others to love & forgive and, ultimately....praise Him. Amazing!

His love is amazing!!!

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Your love is amazing!

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AnonymousMay 17, 2010 at 11:16 AM
Dear Josh,
I watched your story air last night and i couldn't help but cry. I am a believer like you are your story and forgiving heart is truly like God commanded in Matthew 5:16" Let your light shine before men that they may see your good deeds and praise your father in Heaven". You are indeed a testimony and I want you to realize that God took you through that path so you might have a story to share. Think back and imagine your life with the false prison term, it could have been worse. Thank God for where you are and May he continue to uphold and lift you up. Keep the light shinning.
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Anonymous May 17, 2010 at 1:50 PM
Josh,

I have been reading Rich Mullins a lot lately.

Do you like him?

This life has shown me how we're mended and how we're torn, how it's O.K. to be lonely as long as you're free.

Karen
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Anonymous May 18, 2010 at 7:32 AM
Josh please check your email or Facebook. I will provide my phone number.

I want to help you in any way if I can and perhaps use your story to help others gain their freedom.

Just let me know what I can do for you.

Cry with you? Pray with you? Certainly.

I'm here.
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AnonymousMay 18, 2010 at 9:56 PM
You have lived a life that no one could even imagine. You are very brave. Besides his LOVE one of the greatest gifts is forgivness. When you let go , gave your hate and anger to
God you were set free. After all no one can deal with it better.
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Ben 69 SoloJanuary 2, 2024 at 9:01 AM
Thannks for this
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At 18, I was arrested in Illinois and sent to Missouri on a 1st degree murder charge. At 19, I was erroneously convicted of 2nd degree murder and sentenced to two consecutive 30 year sentences. I was sentenced on the victim's birthday. The victim's name was Angela M. Lawless.

The day following my sentence, I was sent to the Missouri Department of Corrections, where my sentence was illegally reconfigured to a 60. I was illegally placed under life sentence sanctions. I did a total of 16 years, 10 of which was spent in Jefferson City's notorious "Walls", once rumored to be the largest prison in the world and a place Time Magazine once deemed "The Bloodiest 47 Acres In America".

Two days after my 34th birthday, I was released and declared "innocent". I was completely exonerated by Judge Richard Callahan on February 17th 2009 and released on the 18th.

I'm a blessed, loved and fortunate man of God.

I'm not trying to be a "good Christian" and I accept that I'm not. I'm just a genuine, authentic, messed up, jacked up, screwed up, busted up, mistake prone, "too much", love struck, silly, incurable, delivered, justified, redeemed and forgiven child of the King and follower of Christ.

I'm a public speaker.

When contacting me for an engagement, please include the following information in your invitation:

. Dates, times and locations

. Travel arrangements

. Your affiliations

. Your vision and purpose

. Why me? and Why you?

. Offered amenities and compensation

When I speak, my goal is to reach into every life listening to me. Everyone has something they're going through. Everyone has something to overcome. No matter what the circumstance, whether legal, criminal, personal, financial, physical, mental or spiritual, people have something to overcome. That's where my message comes in and tries to help. This wasn't who I was before I was locked up. It's who I am now.

What's your testimony?

Here's a snap shot of mine.

I've been beaten with fists and bats, stabbed, shot at, mobbed and ganged up on. As a teenager, I was in a Kankakee Illinois Chicagoland gang and was once addicted to several drugs and alcohol. I've had someone attempt to hit me with a car, nearly fallen to my death as a child and again as a teenager. I've known several forms and types of abuse. I've boxed, lifted weights, wrestled, done some martial arts and am proficient in street fighting. I've overdosed on cocaine and fallen asleep in my own vomit several times as a teenager. I've literally been thrown through walls, been homeless and slept in the worst places, and once, for a matter of months, faced the unfortunate and undeserved prospects of dying by lethal injection while facing charges for a murder I did not commit. I did 16 years in prison as an innocent man in the state of Missouri. I've defended myself against prison rapists and was once hospitalized for a week due to a failed attack by multiple men in the late 90's, and yet ... I'm still here! I'm still breathing! I'm a man of purpose and honor. I'm confident in who I am. I've known enough near death experiences to fill up a thesis, but it's not these near death experiences and atrocities that define me. It's my living and, more specifically, my living in my salvation in Christ that defines me and makes me who I am, and when I'm finished and it's all been said and done, I want to be forever known as a man proficient in a few attributes, as a gentle, loving, honorable and selfless man, a husband, a father and a friend that reflects more of Him and less of me.

In light of my own faults, sins and frailty, of everything I've ever learned, I've learned this more than anything; more than the Cross, I need the Lord of the conquered Cross of sin and death. I need the Life Giver. I need Jesus. Jesus Christ is my Lord and Savior. I am unashamed.

"I was crushed...so much so that I despaired even of life, but that was to make me rely not on myself, but on the God who raises the dead." 2nd Corinthians 1:8,9

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Monday, May 17, 2010

Why? How?

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